While I would apologise for being so MIA on the blogosphere, this post is explanation enough.
Praying and waiting for a child
First, let me begin by saying this is something we prayed for as husband and wife every night. We held hands, we prayed, and we waited. And again, we held hands, we prayed, and we waited. While we didn't have to wait as long as others have, it wasn't a one-time-and-jackpot thing for us either. A child is a blessing we had always hoped for and prayed for, and waiting for something you had asked the Lord so hard for - can be quite a difficult thing.
Many couples go through the same struggle and have waited far longer than we have (I feel your pain and whisper a prayer for you) but knowing this didn't make it any easier for someone like me who is used to well, let's be honest, going for what she wants and getting it with a touch of impatience. But THIS - this blessing that I was asking for - was completely out of my hands. It's all in God's control. And knowing that a powerful and loving God is in complete control and that a tiny thing like me has absolute zero power over it is a scary but liberating thing.
Let go. And let God. This lesson is always something I struggled with all my life as I am a planner and controller by nature. But over and over again, He lovingly teaches me to LET GO, AND LET GOD. And in His perfect timing, He began to mold a child in my womb. There it was, my very own miracle, visualised with a beating heart inside a tiny baby seen on the ultrasound.
Sensitivity to others
I share with you my joy. But I would also like to acknowledge the pain of every couple who is still waiting for their own miracle and for every couple who has experienced a loss. It really doesn't get easier, does it?
And for every person who has been guilty of being insensitive (myself included) by prodding a person by asking, "When are you going to have a baby??" or "Why don't you have a baby yet??" Or even worse, giving unsolicited advice about not waiting too long to have a child. Know that every couple has their own reasons. You never know what someone's been through or is going through. And the bottom line is just that it is simply NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS. :)
Celebrating with a husband appreciation post
My husband tells me I am his rock through it all. But the truth is, he is mine. This amazing cutie of a man just loves me so immensely. I tell the baby in my tummy all the time how incredibly blessed she is to have him as a father. He loves this child so much already. And I can go on and on about what an incredible man he is and how amazing he will be as a father, but let me save that for another post another day. For now, can we just acknowledge how cooperative and willing he is to not only take my blog photos, but pose with me oh-so-naturally for the couple shots that I want too? Here's to husbands who do anything and everything to make their wives happy. :)
And to the baby in my tummy... YOU ARE SO SO LOVED ALREADY!!!
We shot these photos ourselves during the winter at Mt. Lofty Botanic Gardens using a camera and a tripod. South Australia, you are always beautiful.